This is indeed a Red Letter Day! After eight years of care from the Oncology Clinic, today I say goodbye to the Doctor who saved my life. His depth of knowledge , and humility to consult with two equally qualified colleagues, one from Duke, and one from West Virginia produced a cure for my cancer! For anyone suffering from cancer, the deepest and darkest fears we ever dread is the pronouncement that we have that terrible disease that robs us of our lives.
To me, my diagnosis came within three months of having a heart attack and a stroke. I did in fact, feel like it the last straw. My life was full and interesting. My husband and I were traveling during mini-vacations and life was grand. Suddenly, at age sixty four, here I was with not one, not two, but three of the worst diseases attacking me in short order. Continue reading
It is hard to put a point on it but things are certainly changing on a daily basis since I began Dronabinol. Lately I have noticed more than ever, that Continue reading
Today I am confident in posting some important information to make you aware of choosing the right generic THC/CBD alternative painkiller for you.
I am going to step back to a year ago. It was with a deep sense of scepticism by being prescribed ‘weed’, reluctantly I took my first dose. Remember my bio.. ‘seventy-one year female with no prior Cannabis experience, except in the capacity of voyeur!’
This was scary and I was struggling with my vast knowledge of this illegal drug, and lifetime exposure to the propaganda of the horrors associated with Cannabis use. Had to push back on the bad things ‘weed’ can do, and make a leap of faith at the possibilities of what the ‘weed’ might be able to do for me. Could it be possible that I could lose my four year old ‘morning sickness’ nausea, by taking a cannabis pill? Nothing to lose and nothing has worked before to give me one day of freedom from nausea. Maybe I could enjoy the smells of cooking. Or even get taste and enjoy the flavor of my tomato sandwich! That was the turning point to my life.
The next morning, I took my dose and sat watching coverage of the election. Around forty-five minutes later I began to feel tingling around my lips, and my tongue. Then I found myself focusing on a sentence and time starting warping. Minutes seemed like hours, sometimes hours went by as if only minutes had passed.
It was when I first got up to make a cup of tea. I felt strangely free. I had no pain! I was totally free from pain. It made me feel light and gay, and uplifted. I walked upright. My feet did not cause me pain when I walked. Not a hint of back pain. I also noticed that I no longer felt that horrid morning sickness for the first time in four years had gone. I felt great, and the only thing that seemed different was that I felt my mind was slowed down so I could think deeper. Continue reading
Played mini-golf with our dear neighbors. It has been five years since I have had enough strength and felt pain free for over six months. The quality of my life has dramatically improved. No longer locked inside four walls..unable to move..bedridden..and dependent on my husband for basic needs. A total flip to being pain free with my use of Dronabinal..
I have found a way to enjoy and take back my life after suffering from cancer for eight years. Now cancer free, I am also pain free and nausea free using Medicinal THC. While there is little published factual information on the use of medical THC to ease the suicidal pain associated with cancer, I am using this blog to diary my own personal experience with Medical THC to bring some positive exposure to this very real change to my quality of life by deciding to use a little researched and much maligned alternative to opiates.
I have used opiates and they made me more ill. After a year of using Dronabinol, I have regained a quality of life I didn’t think possible before I began taking Dronabinol. What I once thought would screw up my brain and turn me into a zombie, has given me back a joy of living I had not felt since my cancer diagnosis.
Sometimes my prejudices have lead to poor choices and in this circumstance I was so boxed into my ever increasing misery of unrelenting pain, I simply reached out to my Oncologist’s suggestion, mainly to get relief from nausea. It was surprising to find that one month into taking my daily dose, I found myself nausea free and pain free. Who knows if anybody else would get the same relief. I never used recreational THC. Maybe it works differently with me.
With my Nursing background and knowing how hard it is to cope with the pain that cancer and its treatment inflicts on the survivor, I decided to take my revelation public and use this Blog to share my experience.
Who said the American dream was DOA. We aliens from foreign lands who chose to take up residence and Citizenship ,here in the United States are grateful for so much.
In my case it is my life and my gratitude is to a wonderful expatriate who expertise in Radiological Oncology has reversed my ‘terminal’ status of Metastatic Breast Cancer to Cancer-free. If he did not immigrate to the US and I did not immigrate to the US, we would never have met and my fate may well have been quite different.
So what does it mean to be cured of cancer? Well if I still had the cancer-related pain, my cure would have been a sentence to a life of harrowing pain. However, in these enlightened days in the US, all the states of the nation now allow the use of Medicinal Marijuana
Only in America has all fifty states now legalized Medical THC.For elder cancer treatment and aging. This is a positive step in the direction of living a quality of life while being affected by the effects of cancer treatment.
Got on the scales this morning, As one does..and to my surprise I have dropped another pound! I ask myself – what else does this drug have in store for me?
How did Marijuhana become so badly maligned by mainstream? Since commencing Dronabinol when I feel happy for the first time in my life. All the traumatic experiences of my seventy one years have just floated away. Memories are on hold for the first time ever. Sad memories have given way to thoughts that now have room for what is happening to me today. I am feeling the real world, and life, seeping into my cells day by day.
It totally perplexes me to comprehend the reason why society has cursed the ‘weed’ for everything that my experience diametrically oppose!
Take pain as and example. The intense, constant, ugly all consuming sense, that just taking a breath will make it unbearable to live and despite my wish for freedom from the pain, I must keep living. Opiates were never efffective for my cancer pain, even at sixty milligrams a day.
The reality of my opiate use was minimal pain relief with increasing euporia, and an increasing divide between self and reality.
In respect to Dronabinol, the opposite happens. On a daily basis I find myself getting total pain relief from a painkiller that is not yet on the FDA list for this usage.
Pain relief and the other positive effects I am finding as I use Dronabinol, are definitely not getting the attention of the principal actors. Healthcare professionals need to make major changes to the negative perception of THC and map new algorithems to effectiely relieve pain. Dronabinol in my mind, and from my experience, should be part of maintream thinking when decision-making on the choice cancer pain relief.
By the way, to this point I appear to have an increased metabolism while taking Dronabinol and am not getting fat, while feeling happy.
At seventy-one I am experiencing freedom from pain through the use of medicinal THC, drug name Marinol. Just 7.5 milligrams once a day, provides me with a pain free life, filled with happiness, hope, and goals for the future.
My doctor and the pain clinic had tried everything including Hydrocodone 60 milligrams daily, but no pain relief.
Now despite an unstable, collapsed lumbar spine that is inoperable, I am pain free and able to participate in life in a way that was impossible six months ago.
I can do this for two reasons. The first is acknowledging that while I am without pain, the trade off is that my perception is impaired, including no longer able to drive.
My kind and caring husband of thirty two years has made it possible for me to make the decision to continue taking Marinol, and take over the responsibilities of caring for me and our household. It has given me a new lease on life.
I created this Blog to encourage conversation about this experience. I am one of a very small population of cancer survivors, who has benefited , of using Marinol, a natural alternative to other possibly lethal pain killers like opiates.
While cautioning ‘handle with care’, it is great to feel no pain. Not so great to relinquish total control. In taking Marinol it would be careless and irresponsible to not be mindful of its side effects.But some impairment to perception, and relinquishing alcohol,is a fair trade for feeling this good!